writing my speech for renaissance has been one of the weirdest things ever because it’s the last one ever and it’s weird and yeah it’s weird.
okay as much as i bitch and complain and how much sleep i lose over it and how much shit i say over and over and over. it was days like today when all of it is completely worth it. it’s worth every breakdown, it’s worth every lost hour of sleep because everything I’ve gotten out of the past year is invaluable to me.
I am so far past broken and disappointed that I am numb which explains why i am aloof five minutes after anything happens. i am completely numb.
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welcome to my pity party. have a refreshment. snacks are on the back table.
there comes a point where I am no longer worried about coming off as rude and I just want to get my point across because obviously being nice wasn’t effective.
at this point i just need reassurance on where i stand with everyone
(via lanternsonlakes)
I seriously would have never thought that I would get as close to these four people as I have. Without them I would have had a much more difficult time getting through this year than I already. I guess what’s the most amazing thing to me is that I was able to show them how stressed out I could get or tell them issues I had with my life in general and they didn’t view me any differently as a person. One of the oddest things I find is that I had my initial impressions of each of them but they have proved to me that people who genuinely care about you and want only the best for you. I don’t think I show my appreciation for them nearly as often as I think I should but I love all four of them unconditionally. I’m going to miss them so much next year. okay i’m babbling. I’ll stop now.
usually when people say I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT it means they don’t want to talk about the subject that you brought up. i don’t think it’s that hard to understand.
actually whatever nothing is even worth the effort anymore. fuck all of this ugh everything is so stupid skfhjkdsjpfdslfksafd. UGH THIS IS SO FUCKING STUPID BEYOND ALL COMPREHENSION
wow i have lost all my capabilities of being mean in a scolding manner to people
or maybe it’s that i’m so tired of being on people that you know i get really really sad when i have to
